From time to time I think how thankful we should be towards the ones who full our lives, who are always there when we need something, who always CARE when we DON'T CARE....
When you are sad and think the whole world is against you, when you think that you have fallen down and can't even crawl, when you think that this is the last day in your life because you have lost the meaning of living, someone kindhearted and so sincere comes and holds your hand, talks to you without words, gives you courage by just looking at your eyes, and makes you feel the sweetness of life again, the treasure-time that you have. Suddenly, you start smiling through your tears even a little bit with a shame when you remember what you have just been thinking about, and than he/she bows your face on his/her shoulder, and that's it.... you are safe now, you are calm now like a little child... 




P.S. THANK YOU P., S., B. -chikner :)
  

White.  That's the color of innocence and kindness. The color of coolness and gorgeousness. Simplistic but sophisticated as it can be. So damn visible and open but at the same time incognito. The color of freshness and clarity...Nevertheless, white is the color of so many masks which give the wearers the angelic appearance, enclaving the devil inside... White is the color of purest snow....
It's snowing outside, and the tremendous flakes are dancing slowly down to my face when I open the window and look up into the sky. Nothing is seen but the wandering snowflakes, holding maybe unrecognized and still not discovered galaxies behind, covering so many blue-greyish air-kind things called skies, hottest star which we coin as the Sun, and billions of broken dreams or newborn imaginary fantasies... If going too deep through the flakes, one can also notice smiley and calm faces of those angels who are in white light dresses too... So many things are hidden beneath the airy cover of snow, which is going to melt sooner or later... because the Sun is more powerful..because it CAN open and melt the masks... 
Masks are sooner or later broken... and the true soul inside is seen under sunlight... sooner OR later.

Let the masks of wearers be melted, and let their souls be warmed by the tender sunlight... 

White is the color of Love...

Each moment in this life has its purpose and that purpose has its own purpose. If,on your regular way to workplace, you suddenly notice a stone, a small, tiny stone, with a beautiful color, even that minute has its purpose. It creates memories...Memories, which than become a past and a long after, a history... Things like that tiny stone create the history. The history of your life. Suddenly, while rushing to somewhere "important", you notice a sparrow, a cute, small sparrow, jumping on the fallen autumn leaves and you think: "How happy it is... So full of joy...and with so much willpower...". And you never forget that sparrow throughout the day, the year, the years... That's part of your history... Each moment has its purpose. Like the day when you meet strangers without knowing they are going to be your best friends. And it's the same autumn...Like the moment when you get acquainted with them and think: "He looks smart. He is cute. And he has the sense of humor." The next day: "He already understands me.. that's so cuteeeee....". The other day: "Hi friendo, what's up?", and they are your friends.. Suddenly. These moments are never forgotten. You can call them "Batmanchik", "Spidermanchik" and the names suit them...Suddenly :) It's like the moment you noticed the sparrow... the moment you created your memory and it changed your life...
So you are happy... :) 


P.S. Today's snowfall reminded me of my childish dream...to become a never-dying snowflake... 

 Every day is different...every dawn is different..every sunset is unique in its own way... and everything changes. With the ticking of the clock, with the rising of the sun, with the baby crying and the old woman praying... everything changes... with the blossom of the spring, with the winter snow and the autumn leaf...with the shining eyes and the morning kiss... with the first hello and the last goodbye...with the joy of friends and the cuteness of "hn"s... with the people whom you loved and the people whom you wait... with the strikings of a guitar and the sweetness of a harmonica... Only 2 things are for sure and eternal... Love and Friends!!!! 

A friend that is unique
A friend that is one of a kind
A friend that is perfect 
A type of friend who is hard to find
A friend that is sweet
A friend that is perpetually fair
A friend that you know 
Will always be there
A friend with an amazing spirit
A friend with a striking heart
A friend that is trustworthy
A friend that is smart
A friend that assuages your pain
A friend that can dry your tears
A friend with unrestricted love 
A friend that can alleviate your fears
A friend with an exquisite smile
That could never be ignored
A friend that’s never been hurtful
A friend that is easily adored
A friend that is respectful
A friend who is loved by all
A friend that is relied upon
A friend to never let fall
A friend you can always talk to....

P.S. Thank you, my friends, for being so amazingly good !!! 
Yours,
T.T.
 

 

When there is no need for words...
When there is no room for tears...
When there is no space for fears...
When there is NO NOTHING...
There is the sweet sadness...

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

На холодной земле стоит город большой.
Там горят фонари, и машины гудят.
А над городом ночь, а над ночью луна,
И сегодня луна каплей крови красна.

Дом стоит, свет горит,
 Из окна видна даль.
Так откуда взялась печаль?
И, вроде, жив и здоров,
И, вроде, жить не тужить.

Так откуда взялась печаль?
А вокруг красота - не видать ни черта.
И все кричат: "Ура!" И все бегут вперед,
И над этим всем новый день встает.

  Дом стоит, свет горит,
 Из окна видна даль.
И, вроде, жив и здоров,
И, вроде, жить не тужить.
 Так откуда взялась печаль?

Hi everyone !!! The world seems so messy nowadays, the Domino Effect of protests in the Greater Middle East, the earthquakes, the floods, the fires... they are everywhere in the globe without any intensions to stop... There are so many other occurings that I see, read and hear about,,, what is interesting in this regard is that people sometimes find themselves in an eternal chaos. However, for each of them there are things more important than the ongoing events...They may be busy with their career or personal life, etc....Well, what my head is busy with now is something different,,, Hastely turning away from the mess around, I'm now listening to a wonderful song which brilliantly expresses the things I care about right now......THe song is " Can't smile without you" by Barry Manilow...THe lyrics are here: To A.T.

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anythi

You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brighten my day
Who would have believed that
You were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad

I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes
So very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard
Leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything

You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

Why I chose this song ? Because I'm really finding it hard to do anything without him.... His absence is hard for me to overcome ... I am strong enough??? Let's live this with the question mark hanging over... Counting hours for these months to pass...
Miss u...

A few days ago I was doing a presentation about Conflict Resolution in Rwanda. Before that, I did a wide research about Rwandan Genocide, international community's intervention and about the EXPECTED genocide......
The Republic of Rwanda is a unitary republic of central and eastern Africa with a population of approximately 10.7 million (2010). It borders Uganda to the north; Tanzania to the east; Burundi to the south; and the Democratic Republic of Congo (former Zaire) to the west. The early inhabitants were Twa people, who are a minority now. Today the population mailny consists of Hutus and Tutsis. Rwanda has been the colony of Germany and Belgium, who always favoured Tutsis over Hutus. The Civil War occured between those two clans(I don't consider them to be different ethnic groups), and after the death of the president it lead to the Genocide,,,,For about 1 000 000 people were killed, and thousands of people just flew to the naighbouring countries, still living in poverty...Now the question arises, Could the Genocide have been prevented? Why wouldn't international community intervene before the massacre occured???.....
During researches I came up with the following expression: "Rwanda was simply too far, too remote, too poor, and probably too BLACK to be worthwile..... "(Des Forges). This is how the ignorance of international community can be explained... There were plenty of early warnings to UN and Big Countries that Hutus were planning a genocide,,, and UN had simply a mission there to stop the CIVIL WAR... not more,,, soon after the warnings the blue helmets just withdrew...
There is a film based on the documentary book of Romeo Dallaire (General of UN mission) , "Shaking Hands with the Devil". Watching this film everything became more clear for me.. The international community just didn't care about those poor kids, women and young Tutsis and even Hutus.... they had no interests there.... It was obvious. During the slaughter a White House source told to New York TImes that Rwanda "has no ties to the US and no oil or other resources that would make American intervention worth the cost....".
It's just unforgivable...
By reading about this and looking at the pictures of the slaughtered people and the faces of children, I had in mind Armenian Genocide... is it too remote and without resources???? It's not worthwile so as to recognize the Genocide??? International Community has no interests ??? One thig is for sure.. The whooleee world should do everything not to let any genocide occur ... because it's the worst thing in the humanity....
"This new century should become the century of humanity, when we as human beings, rise above race, creed, color, religion and national self-interest and put the good of humanity above the good fo our own tribe.For the sake of children and our future.. " Romeo Dallaire

"...The object of a New Year is not that we should have a new year. It is that we should have a new soul and a new nose; new feet, a new backbone, new ears, and new eyes. Unless a particular man made New Year resolutions, he would make no resolutions. Unless a man starts afresh about things, he will certainly do nothing effective. Unless a man starts on the strange assumption that he has never existed before, it is quite certain that he will never exist afterwards. Unless a man be born again, he shall by no means enter into the Kingdom of Heaven..."
G. K. Chesterton

Hi everyone,
Haven't been here for a long time... A new year has come, and I decided to write frequently from the very first days of the new-born 2011...
But before turning to the stormy upcoming events of the new year, I'd like to sum up the year of 2010.
It was a very fertile and "polyeventic " year: Various changes in personal life, in education and in life totally. I graduated from the uni, got my Bachelor's degree , than stubbornly began preparing for my exams to apply for Master's degree, alongside working in different places to gain more experience, as I was told the experience would be helpful in applying for Master's. The chain of changes started circiling around me and inside of me. I was running from one place to the other in order to manage to take the right step which was fatal for me... A step that opened new avenues to my future... I entered the uni.. As for my job, having a Good friend beside is always perfect :) We decided to found Mindset Tutoring, well, it's going good, not bad yet :)
2010 was a year of Love... A real one :) If anyone thinks there is no Love , I can assure, as Someone did to me, that love exists... you just have to find it inside your heart and share... share with someone who has a piece of it to share with you... No matter how sad you can be,  or how deeply disappointed, or how much puzzled, real love has the power to cure ... to remove the darkness from your past and be a companion in your each step of  today... HE did it...
2010 was a year of new outlooks, weird plans and unbelievable dreams that are coming true day by day ...
With all its pros and cons 2010 was an interesting and important year, I am thankful to it for all those grand events happening in my life and I am ready to welcome the 2011 ...
It will not disappoint me, I'm sure ;)))) Happy New Year..Cheers, Tatev :)